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[14:13] ABS HAKIM: something to do, I guess. ((Clara's "lip synching" again. XD))
[14:14] MyFairTeeny: XD
[14:14] ABS HAKIM: Clara: I WAS lip synching! >[
[14:14] MyFairTeeny: Amade: o.o but... there's no music...
[14:15] ABS HAKIM: clara: ...It's in my mind.
[14:15] MyFairTeeny: Amade: but... lip synching is done to music... so you look like you're singing... o.o and there's no music... and i heard music...
[14:16] ABS HAKIM: clara: how can you hear music if there is no music?
[14:17] MyFairTeeny: amade: i heard music
[14:17] MyFairTeeny: amade: you were singing.
[14:17] ABS HAKIM: Clara: But you said it yourself. There was no music.
[14:17] ABS HAKIM: Clara: So I couldn't possibly be singing.
[14:19] MyFairTeeny: amade: there's not music in the room... NOW... but there WAS when i wasn't here...
[14:19] ABS HAKIM: Clara: So how could you possibly know there was music if you weren't here?
[14:20] MyFairTeeny: amade: there's nothing on in here to play music on, just you... *leans against the wall*
[14:21] ABS HAKIM: Clara: ...*points to the piano*
[14:21] MyFairTeeny: Amade: The piano can't make voices...
[14:21] MyFairTeeny: ((isn't it a classical piano?))
[14:21] MyFairTeeny: ((or is it a keyboard))
[14:21] ABS HAKIM: ((yeah))
[14:21] MyFairTeeny: ((okay))
[14:21] ABS HAKIM: Clara:...
[14:21] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *smirks*
[14:21] ABS HAKIM: Clara: What are you smirking about?
[14:22] MyFairTeeny: Amade: I got you *grins*
[14:22] ABS HAKIM: Clara: And just what do you mean by that?
[14:23] MyFairTeeny: Amade: Well, not you HAVE to admit it was you singing.
[14:23] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Fine, then, it was me singing. What's the point?
[14:26] MyFairTeeny: Amade: That you shouldn't have to fib to me about you singing...
[14:27] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *folds her arms, looking at the ground and scuffing her heel on it*
[14:28] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *frowns slightly* I feel somewhat saddened by the fact that you're ashamed to sing in front of me...
[14:28] MyFairTeeny: Amade: Not that you have to.
[14:29] ABS HAKIM: Clara: It's not that...I'm just get embarrassed when it's front of just one person. I'm used to singing either by myself or in front of a group of people.
[14:29] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *shrugs lightly* What about Stella? Don't you sing in front of her? And doesn't she sing in front of you?
[14:30] ABS HAKIM: Clara: That's different...It's realy difficult to explain. Let's put it this way: some people just don't like decisions that people have made.
[14:30] ABS HAKIM: really*
[14:32] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *mildly confused*
[14:33] ABS HAKIM: Clara: I understand that it's confusing. Maybe we should just talk about it...I mean...I told Marcus, so why shouldn't I tell you?
[14:34] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *sighs softly* It's all right Miss Clara, I'll just go now *shrugs and turns around*
[14:34] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *grabs his shoulder* No!
[14:34] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *jerks slightly and pulls away, turning around* Yes?
[14:35] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Don't go.
[14:35] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *sighs softly and shrugs his violin a bit higher on his shoulder* Why not?
[14:36] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Because...*pauses before blurts out* I know how you felt a few years ago. *claps her hand over her mouth*
[14:36] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *looks to her quietly, eyes slightly downcast*
[14:38] ABS HAKIM: Clara: ...Sorry...But it really hurts me, keeping secrets from you.
[14:40] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *shrugs and murmurs softly* It's okay...
[14:40] ABS HAKIM: Clara: But I do know how you felt.
[14:42] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *looks at her quietly with one of his "go on" looks*
[14:43] ABS HAKIM: Clara: I...when I was 21 I...well, I didn't get raped per se, but...*sits on the piano bench*
[14:44] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *walks over tentatively to her and leans against the piano, lightly playing with one hand* What happened...?
[14:45] ABS HAKIM: Clara: One of Jacob's friends wanted to talk to me...obviously in private. He wanted me to sing, but, like now, I was embarrassed to sing in front of one person, especially a guy. Apparently he didn't like that...
[14:46] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *plays a sour note on the piano and turns to her silently* Asshole...
[14:46] ABS HAKIM: Clara: My sentiments exactly.
[14:48] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *shuts his eyes and plays softly with both hands now* Fuckers like that need to learn to keep their fucking hands to their fucking selves...
[14:49] ABS HAKIM: Clara: They don't need to go around traumatizing people like that...
[14:49] ABS HAKIM: Clara: I couldn't even sit in the same room with the police without getting nervous. My friend stayed with me throughou the whole interrogation.
[14:49] ABS HAKIM: throughout* (damn typos)
[14:55] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *plays an agressive song as he listens to her* Bastards... This shit has to stop...
[14:55] ABS HAKIM: Clara: It never should have started.
[14:55] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Isn't that what you should be saying?
[14:57] MyFairTeeny: Amade: What...?
[14:57] ABS HAKIM: Clara: People never should have even thought of sexually assaulting people. If it never started, we wouldn't have to wish for it to stop.
[14:59] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *plays a bit louder* It's too late to say that... it's already started, the best we can do is just try and prevent it...
[14:59] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *nods*
[15:02] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *sits down on the bench and furrows his brow as he plays* It screws up people in the head... on both accounts... not to the point that they aren't the same... it's... it's demoralizing. It takes away one's pride for themselves and hurts them. I don't usually say hate... but I hate them, jerks like that.
[15:04] ABS HAKIM: Clara: It's true. It's like my friend said to the police. "Innocence and womanhood and the joys of life…all of these things will be lost." N-Not just womanhood. There are two kinds of people I hate, and that sort is one of them.
[15:07] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *nods quietly, having nothing more to say* You're too kind to have something like that happen to you, Miss Clara... most people that it happens to turn bitter... cold to the world... I'm surprised I'm still as I am...
[15:08] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Well, whereas you're surprised, I'd have to say I'm glad. I can't see you as being a bitter sort of person, anyway.
[15:09] ABS HAKIM: ((you added waltz for the moon for one of your videos?? why?))
[15:09] MyFairTeeny: Amade: Music helps me deal with that... *plays faster and a bit louder* Aggravation... can be channeled through instruments... you can control your emotions that way...
[15:09] MyFairTeeny: ((because it's amazing :3))
[15:09] ABS HAKIM: ((batteryshipping?))
[15:09] MyFairTeeny: ((xd))
[15:09] MyFairTeeny: ((DOUBLE A SHIPPING :d))
[15:10] ABS HAKIM: Clara: That's true. *smiles wryly* Too bad I only play one.
[15:11] MyFairTeeny: Amade: It doesn't matter if you play one or five or ten... so long as you keep playing... *shuts his eyes and tilts his head to the side*
[15:11] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *grins* Yeah. Exactly.
[15:12] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *slows down and finally stops, hands dropping into his lap as he sits there*
[15:13] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *smiles* You'd definitely give Nuha a run for her money.
[15:13] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *tilts his head to the side*
[15:14] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *raises an eyebrow* What?
[15:14] MyFairTeeny: Amade: Who's Nuha?
[15:15] ABS HAKIM: Clara: That' my friend who stayed with me while the police interrogated me. She plays the piano, too. But she doesn't live in Arcardya. She doesn't even live in Redhaven.
[15:15] MyFairTeeny: Amade: Oh... *smiles softly* She played too?
[15:16] ABS HAKIM: Clara: She still does.
[15:16] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *smiles* It's a good instrument... though I'm mildly saddened that I can't carry it around with me... *pouts playfully*
[15:17] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *laughs*
[15:19] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *grins and begins to play the piano again* It's fun though, such a range of sound...
[15:19] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *nods*
[15:20] MyFairTeeny: Amade: When did you learn?
[15:20] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Learn what?
[15:22] ABS HAKIM: Clara: To play the piano? My grandmother taught me a little while after I moved in with her and my grandfather.
[15:22] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *nods and continues to play in silence*
[15:23] ABS HAKIM: Clara: She's the one who gave the confidence to sing, too. *smiles a little* So if it weren't for her, I wouldn't be here.
[15:25] MyFairTeeny: Amade: And that would be a terrible shame... *gives her a smile* I can't imagine never having met you, Miss Clara.
[15:26] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *smiles back* Same here. Life would be rather gray, I think.
[15:26] MyFairTeeny: ((look at the corner of the picture http://gay.groups.vox.com/library/photo/6a00c225290de28e1d00e398a06f390005.html))
[15:26] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *sighs and stops playing, standing up* Well, I really do need to go...
[15:27] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Yeah, I should go, too.
[15:27] ABS HAKIM: ((i can't see it because I don't have a vox blog))
[15:27] MyFairTeeny: ((=\ it has a cereal box and says "free julius doll inside" XD))
[15:27] ABS HAKIM: ((OMFG XD))
[15:28] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *smiles* Well... thank you... have a good day *begins to walk towards the door*
[15:28] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Do you want to walk together? I mean...*awkwardly looks at the ground*
[15:29] MyFairTeeny: Amade: *looks to her and then chuckled* Would you like to walk with me?
[15:29] ABS HAKIM: Clara: Okay.
[15:29] MyFairTeeny: Amade: Then lets go... I'll be late for my lesson.
[15:30] ABS HAKIM: Clara: *nods and hurriedly grabs her bag, walking over to him*

--Teeny

currently listenting to - the great escape by boys like girls
currently feeling - listless <.<

Where do you get recommendations for new books to read?

I get recommendations from friends, family, TV, the internet... all sorts of places really, it's not exactly that hard O.o;;

--Teeny

currently listening to - desperation by takayuki kondo
currently feeling - pleased =]

=__= What a stupid day today is... I'm actually working, pfft... you know, I wonder what prompts me to work and then procrastinate when really nothing is going to get done *glares at stupid computer screen and then at iPod* Damn it, no more Run! *sighs and scans something* Yeah... anyhow... I'm sort of tired today, don't know why. I had the weirdest fucking dream last night where I got a cake O.o and today I got a virtual cake from Mimi...

Sometimes my clairvoyance scares me *shakes her head* I mean, seriously, since when have my dreams ever actually lead to reality? That's just fucking insane... *sighs* Anyhow... listening to some UVERworld right now and it isn't making me happy =[ fuck, I don't even know why I fucking feel this way in the first place... maybe it's because no one's online to play with *emos* Okay, I'm done emo-ing, that's just fucked up... DAMN IT! STOP SWEARING!

*sighs* Okay, I think I have a handle on my cussing now, I'm gonna stop now and try and work on my summer reading now =\ I seriously need to stop procrastinated before September 4th and 5th, then I'll get to see Maestro and a few of the people who love me and whom I love back... and then :D FREE LUNCH WITH THE MASTER HIMSELF *dances* I do so love him... in a platonic sort of way XD

~Teeny

currently listening to - LIFEsize by UVERworld
currently feeling - mildly lonely =[